i'm so sick of myself right now.
each time i see a couple walking down the road,
each time i see a couple on the bus,
each time i see any couple,
i would think of you.
And the pain starts surrounding my heart,
and the vision start getting blur.
My mind is so fully occupied with you.
i really hate it.
Looking at your picture in my phone's wallpaper,
really bring me back alot alot of memories.
Everywhere i go, especially school :(
I'm being a real no lifer now.
Drifting apart from everyone. Especially Regina.
I dont know why we just stopped talking to each other already.
dont even have the mood to go out for the late night movie with Vian.
but i'll still go, hoping i can see you, again..
if not, i probably wont get to see you ever again.
School's starting in four days time.
Great, something that can occupy my mind. finally.
Audition, i still cant stop thinking.
i come out frequently to see if there's any orange blinking windows.
to see whether if it's you. But there's none.
i know, i'm very initiative.
Each time my phone vibrates, i pray that it's you.
when it's not you, i felt like my world's gonna end.
so my world ended like 5, 6 times already.
This morning when walking to school, i felt so lonely :(
sigh i walked looking down on the ground.
when there's a gust of wind i felt like i could fly away.
(Dear chicky, i believe i can fly. yet i'm falling.)
where is my lovelies, when i need a shoulder..
why are you gone, now..
i love you, i miss you, i need to see you, i need you back.
The pain is so unbearable :'( :'(
You once told me you love me.
Do you still love me as much now?
You once told me that you will give me a hug someday.
Will you still do it?
You once told me that you won't leave me.
Will you ever leave me?
You once told me you'll make me happy.
Am i happy now?
You once told me that we'll last.
Are we still lasting?
I said i wont leave you, i dint, did i?
I said i'll love you, i do dont i?
I said i'll forget g and love you, i did it.
but yet the result, so devastating.
Maybe afterall, you don't love me as much as I love you?
Do you know you are everything in my life?
Do you know how much I miss you?
Do you know how much I want you?
i miss calling you boyfriend. i miss saying you evil.
i miss all the sweet talkings, i miss seeing my name in your blog.
i miss you, i miss everything. and i miss you again, and again.
From 10 April to May 22.
May 22 to July 25.
July 25 to 22 november.
5 december to 28 december.
and June, the perfect month. Do you even remember?
For a last time i could call you baby.
baby lets just hope you enjoy your life now yeah.
You gave me 262 days of love. I totally love the days, the first few months.
how much you love me, how much effort you did for this relationship.
thank youuuuuuu, i know feelings do fade. i dont blame you. i'll be waiting.
waiting for the day you'll be coming back, but i think thats harddddddd.
you'll be going to Poly, or even J.C. its harder for us to see each other and so.
But whatever it is, i'll love you still. Ya i love you :')
i am not going to crap things here about us.
its all in a blog that you never ever realise. You're gone, and i miss you.
i just wanna hug you, for a last time. can i?
I wish I can tell you everything, anything.
