"as the evening twilight fades away, the sky is filled with stars, invisible by day.
as we fade away, our hearts filled up with scars and thorns, invisble to all."
today will be a sleepless night, i guess.
when i dint really sleep much yesterday :(
the tap in my eyes just keeps turning on when i thought of something.
More like everything.
i'm thinking of putting my blog to private a few mintues ago.
since you dont want to read it.
but hor, i find it very ma fan :(
as i just found out that some people got read my blog one.
Like Annette! Very surprised when she suddenly talked to me on Msn.
She talked some sense into me, thank you :') but still i'm following my heart hah.
and my heart is still leading to you, my dear.
i've regretted, insisting to go my own way.
i know i should have listened to some of you.
And see, now i'm like this again.
but this time, i'm suffering alone.
i could be happy now, if i dint sad yes :(
You dont care much bout me already.
this is what boys are hor, Annette.
Once they dont love, they'll just throw them away and make them as unknowns.
In with the new, out with the old.
just tmr, and this year which i had with mostly downs, will end.
it's going to be a new year tmr.
i'm going to be like you, wait no more you.
No moreeeee, i'm trying so hard now.
i really need to forget everything.
But how can i?
all the things that you said to me..
"We did everything first together, how can you bear to let everything go?"
"Please come back to me, i promise i'll make you happy and wont hurt you again."
"We can start afresh, we can do it."
And that time, i just keep replying "No, we cant. I'm so sorry."
You just continue repeating the same thing again, saying that we can.
And then i began to trust you. Was a huge mistake.
then now you say that we cant.. What shit is that :(
those sentences are like recorded and being played in my head right now.
ARGHHHHHHHHHH.
Currently, i'm looking forward for wednesday.
it's the day which can cheer me up, i hope.
Who wants a sentosa trip then a late night movie at ehub after that? :)
Tell meee cos i lazy call people up.
but i'll still be calling some :P