hate to put it this way.........................................
seeing the way you talk to me, seeing the way you act in front of me, seeing how you walked away from me. you're so heartless, cruel. You never cherish anything that i did for you, bought for you. the ring and bracelet is still with vp am i right? Guess you dont need them anymore. i should have known, i should have ran away from the beginning. I never thought falling in love with you would be a mistake. I trusted you, i trusted that you would not break my heart like how the others did. I thought you were different, i guess you're just the same as the other. I can't forget the time you used to cuddle me in your arms, listening to your heart beating. I can't forget the time you used to whisper in my ears. I can't forget the time you used to tell me that nothing's gonna happen to us, nothing will break the both of us up and we'll last. You were the best, you could never be replaced. I guess, i'm really just a replacement for you. Now, i'm the one who's being replaced. How can your heart change so fast? I had so many dreams about you and me. About all the places we could go, my aunt's wedding, my family chalet.. I was naive, i got lost in your eyes. You're having fun, while i'm thinking we're still together. You walked out of my life, without a warning. You tore me down. I lost my sense of wrong and right.
I AM PERFECTLY FINE :)
I just want to stop this excruciating pain. Why do i always get hurt? I want to beg for forgiveness. i said sorry and gave in thousands of times. Yet what do i get in return... i've never said "break" even when we quarrel very badly. Each time we quarrel, i get to know you more, to know what you hate all all those stuff (but you've nvr told me that you hate girls to drink/smoke, i'll stop doing them nw), i thought you were strong enough to hold on. All i did was to love someone with my whole heart. But you changed your mind. I'm still dreaming of the day we be together once again. I still have high hopes on you. I wanna hate you, but i can't bring myself to. I never thought this would happen to me. Guess now i finally realised, this isn't a fairy tale. I thought i could get over it. Tears fill my eyes as i'm typing these. Why am i still crying for you? Why am i still worried sick when i knew that you're injured? Why am i still thinking of you every minute? Why am i still like this when i know that someone had replaced me and someone is there to take care of you instead of me? I'll never get over you. I was naive, is naive, and will forever be naive. I dont know if i should say this but I'll be waiting for your call/msges. Trust me, i will be waiting even if it takes forever. Cant wait to show all the scars you left me hun, if i ever get to see you again. how should i end this, i love you?
