i wanted to blog about what happen today.
But i'm kinda not in the mood.
Everything was great, till 9 15.
I saw you again, and again and again. I wanted to go up to you, give you a hug and say how much i miss you. Yet, i chose to run away, weeping on Vivian's shoulder. I wished i had. I stood straight, when i heard from Vivian that Ivan saw you. My heart was pumping so quickly. I was so happy that i could see you again. I knew i couldn't hold back my tears so i turned back and pretended that i dint hear it. i thought i could be stronger. I hate myself, for having no courage to face you. Still, i cant forget you yet i'm thinking of you more.
Everybody is celebrating the joyful day, the new 2009. But i'm still crying inside. Our ninth, is getting nearer. 9 more days.. You told me everything that made my spirit alive. I love you, like i always does. The first / second time when we went seperate ways, you asked if i would wait for you. My answer then was 'not sure'. But now, i will say yes. I miss you, i miss you so much that i can imagine you everywhere. Everywhere i go, whatever i see, it just reminds me of you. Seeing lovely couples walking past, thinking of me and you. In the cinema this evening, it was freezing. I still remembered your hands holding mine keeping me warm, even tho' you're usually the one being cold. I told you, i want to watch Twilight again. You asked me to watch with you, you know how happy i was then? :') But it's never going to happen again, isnt it.. You dont need me anymore, do you :( You told me, i'm yours forever. Now i'm here, why aint you taking me.
School's starting tmr. I'm still used to seeing you before school, seeing you standing up during national anthem, always adjusting your shirt, seeing you walking up/down the stairs, seeing you in your class opposite, msging you during lessons, meeting during lunch and after school, busing to your place. I want your warm hugs and wet kisses.
I'm really begging you now. PLEASE COME BACK :'( I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL DO ANYTHING JUST FOR YOU TO COME BACK TO ME. I dont wanna be your past.
