SMILES OF THE DAY

Trip to Giant and Ikea!

2009-11-14T18:21:00.006+08:00

More photos later! :)

2009-11-02T22:06:00.003+08:00

Hi just making this space more alive hahahhaa.

Ummmm I have no idea what to write.
hahaha byeeeeeee ^^

2009-10-19T20:11:00.008+08:00

HI! Exams are overrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Bet you all are chilling out yeah? Heh heh. Hmm i just editted blog skin and ya da da but you guys know i've got a tumblr right? It's kinda addictive and i'll be updating there everyday! So i wouldnt care much bout blog, unless i've got lots of pictures! Hahaha ok um, oh ya baby and i got back together <33333333333 I hope nothing will break us again :) Some stuffs happening to me (only bb knows ^^) but with him by my side, i know everything's gonna be alright. Sigh he's out nowwwwwwwww. BB i miss you!! Come back soooooon! :( Ok school's tmr, probably getting our papers back? Good luck to everybodyyyyyyyy. There's training tmr too, whoohoo! Been eating for the past few weeks. Gonna lose some fatssss.

OH YA! Yesterday was our 7th month! 181009.
I wrote this part before my exams, prepare prepare mah! Somemore got inspirations ^^ It's kinda lengthy so if you dont wanna read also can haha. Ok here it goesssss.

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You want to know why I love you? It’s because you loved me when I didn’t love myself. It’s because you held up my beauty for me to see. It’s because you cared for me unconditionally. It’s because for the first time in my life, i didn’t have to work so hard at being happy.
(via runawaytrain)

I still remembered how we started off knowing each other ^^... I scolded you "un-gentleman" as you made Cheryl L wait for you after your NPCC. Few days later, you asked for my number. Then few days later, you tagged my blog. "Babe! Can i have your msn?" I gave, we talked. And messaged each other almost everyday :D I remembered how i used to call you Chikokokokoko. You even asked me to post bout you! You posted bout me back, with my nameeee hahha. You told me that you're in love with this girl, but you aint close to her yet. You asked advices from me. Later on that night, 170309, you talked to me on msn and talked bout the girl again. I dont know what i was doing, maybe i was playing some games and i said "Just say 'I like you la!' " You said "Ok.. Julie i want to tell you something. I like you" I felt dumb and loss of words at that point of time. Then i called vivian and regina and asked them, what to dooooo. I rejected you first. But next morning, i gave you a chance. Tadah! 180309, FULL-OF-LOVE DAY♥♥♥ I remembered how we used to call each other "My boy" and "My girl". You used to secretly use your phone to message me when you're working :> On 210309, we had our first date. We met at whitesands, i was damn damn nervous and i called vivian to talk. Then i saw you walking past, right in front of me. Haha i guess i really that small size huh! We walked in to whitesands, you even wanted to pull me into a jewelery shop ^^ Walked you to work, but you walked me back to mrt again and walked back to work yourself haha! Cute. On 230309, i told you that i wasnt over W and even hurt you with my words, sorry.. :( When people who i was close to, knew that i'm with you, they asked me to break up with you or they'll ignore me, we quarreled and dint talk to each other for months. I knew that you were different from other guys and you were worth it, so i hanged on. For the first month, i had my floorball matches against other school and all, even when we're just msging, you knew that i was upset when we lost and never failed cheered me up. On 050409, i lost my closest "brother" as he was unhappy with me for being together with you. Almost everyday after school, we'll meet each other and walk to interchange together. We always miss our buses just to spent a lil more time together and you'll always kiss my cheeks before saying goodbye :) On our first month, 180409, you gave me a red with golden ribbon box with a ring inside and a letter. On your birthday, 200409, i felt like i wasnt good enough for you. I did not even celebrate your birthday with you. All i did was to give you your present.. :( After that, we had our cold war which lasted bout 1 week. I thought i was losing you. A few days later, we were alright. There was once i had no mood and you called me up. You called me "dear" through the phone i went all hyped up! ^^ On our second month, 180509, i gave you chocolatess. We were both watching movies with our friends and wanted to watch together too, but my friends had bought the wrong timing one. On the actual day, i went over to your house. It was the first time i went in. I saw you folding aluminum roses, which you mad for me. Speaking of which, i did not take them as i left them at your house haha. It was raining and you walked me to regina's house when the rain stopped a lil. You went back with fluuuuuuu :( After that, we had our cold war again. When i had to leave for camp, i could feel how much you dint want me to go. I read your blog and i was touched to tear :') i still remembered that you told me you cried when you knew i was back home. Gosh i love you. During the month of june, alot of bad stuffs happened.. It was mostly my fault. You left me, on 160609. But came back on our 100th day, 260609. Ever since then, we held on tightly to each other. On 290609, went downtown and watched Leap years with my lappy. It was our favourite show right?!?! On 180709, went over to your house for your mum's surprise birthday party :) In the end of August and September, we were sooooooooo perfect. I can never forget the nights that i spent with you. Yet you chose to walk away, 210909.

I've been waiting for your msg/call, or for you to talk to me on msn since then. Today, today's 181009, our seventh month. We've spent almost a month without each other now, yet my love for you dint seem to fade at all. I dont know how long i'm gonna wait, but i really hope you'll come back by my side... I Love You Izwannnnnnnnn.
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Adding on : But you came back on 071009!!! I'm as happy as i can ever be! :)

2009-10-09T21:43:00.002+08:00

*gone till exams are over*
16 OCTOBER!

2009-10-06T16:57:00.004+08:00

You're not alone, tonight
Imagine me there by your side~
i wished you meant what you said :') Im not feeling any better since you left. how many times do you want me to say? I miss you i miss you i miss you!!

2009-10-05T16:45:00.009+08:00

I cant help but peek out of my classroom's window to see if you're outside your classroom. I cant help but to jump around to catch your attention. I know that it's impossible for us to get back together, but i'm still hanging on, pinning on high hopes. Can you at least tell me? Either "Wait for me" or "Dont wait for me" ? I've been thinking alot last night and i've decided to officially give up after the exams.
Needs you, needs love, needs hugs, needs kisses, needs affection, needs attention. needs izwan wong zhong jie.
I LOVE & MISS YOU SO MUCH :(
please come back baby? i'll treat you the best, i wont give you attitudes, i wont neglect you. I'll be the best you can ever have :'(

2009-10-04T23:37:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MY DEAR BLACKMAN!! \m/
thanks for all the advices that you gave. Even when I'm smiling, even when i'm crying, even when i'm laughing, even when my heart's breaking, you never fail to be there, you never fail to know that i'm feeling down. I am so thankful to know you! I wish you all the best in everything you do. When you're feeling stress, just take a break but never give upppppp!! Mwackssss xoxoxo :)

2009-10-04T19:52:00.011+08:00

OUT WITH MY.................... BOYFRIEND TODAY!!
HE msged me and we met @ mac at the market near my house. We were supposed to study, haha. At least it was more productive than before :D Well welllllll i watched too much Chick vs Dick and it kinda fantasizes (is there such word? haha) me ^^ I brought my laptop along and showed HIM the videos too! HE laughed like crazy and i laughed at HIS expressions. We tried the eating lots of lots of lots of chilli challenge except that ours was with french fries hahah. I ate till my jaw seems numb but HE dont want to give up even tho' HE kept complaining that it's spicy! I ended up giving up and ate HIS ice cream :D We went to pasamalam, walked around and looked at cute stuffs. HE wanted to buy some cute socks hahaha they're really cute! I saw a damn damn cute mini mickeymouse bag and so, we decided to buy 2 mini cartoon bags together awwww ^^v After walking rounds and rounds, HE walked me home and HE home sweet home too!

K laaaaa MY DEAR BOYFRIEND SO SWEET TO ME TODAY. Let me show you who is HE ok? We took photos togetherr hehhe. Ok la, i snapped photos of HIM. So cute k :)

HE IS A FEMALEEEEEEE :P
his right hand is fatter than his left hand hence giving me the out-of-shape heartshape :)

S writes on foolscap : The girl behind you quite pretty but she got mole.
J : ME AH? *shows mole*

Sherv saved my bored day hehe. If not, i will not study AT ALL and sit on my chair, staring at the laptop, waiting for my ass to expand more and watching Chick VS Dick! Ok i'm gnna stop typingggggggg now

i.cant.stand.my.moodswings.i.cant.stand.my.moodswings

2009-10-04T00:04:00.006+08:00

#1 : Go http://youtube.com
#2 : Type in Chick vs. Dick EP1
#3 : Watch and laugh :D
#4 : Watch the following episodes
#5 : You'll find yourself addicted to it

it's fucking addictive i swear! I laughed like crazyyyy man, despite feeling kinda low and lonely during the afternoon haha. My entertainer for the weekends! Been watching it from 10 but i'm still @ EP18. KK Gnna go have my beauty sleep when finish watching EP20.

been missing youuuuuu :'(
i wonder where have you beeen.

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Julie's pm : Is there a formula for happiness? :)
Jasper says : Your pm, there is.
Julie says : What is it?
Jasper says : LOVE + LOVE = HAPPINESS.

2009-10-03T12:00:00.010+08:00

HAPPY INCOMPLETE 200TH DAY BBBBBBBBBBBBBB!!!
"Wherever you go, whatever you do, i'll be right here waiting for youuuu"
i'll be strong but i cant move on hahaha. i love you! :D :D :D

Suppose to go out with my dear joyce but mum said : "Exam round the corner, dont go out la." :( So so so sorry wifeeeee.

P/S : I've uploaded the photos we took in music room!
they're in the 1/10/2009 post.

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(i only have this pic of me and you, so..... tadah hahahaha)

I wanna dedicate this part to yy, who have been helping me all these while. A BIG THANK YOUUUUUUUU!! i'll treat you free drink again ok ^-^ haha really really thank you :D

2009-10-02T18:26:00.004+08:00

YOU'RE THE ONLY BOY I LET INSIDE MY HEART :D

i hope yy explained to you bout the giant cookie hahaha
sry it isnt perfect ;)

one more day to 200th ~

2009-10-01T18:44:00.007+08:00

TODAY'S AWESOMELY FUN !! Totally slack la hehe. Home econs, we baked cookies! Mine very nice hor?!?! > Recess > Lit, free period > MT > Music, free period @ music room! Very fun la, we keep doing the jiayi's hairstyle, MOH-HOCK. Hair can stand one haha! > Slack @ canteen > Walked regina home > Ws > Home :D Tmr's friday yay! So excited for tmrrrrrrrrrrrr.

WAHLAOOOO Take more than 10mins to upload one photoo. I still got 10+ photos to upload i think. Haaha due to my laziness, i'll upload them next time okieokieokie. Me and jiayi's moh-hock hair! Mwahaah so coooooool. \m/

FOR JIAYI !!!!

*waiting for sherv's call!!*

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pic pic pic!

Julie : Izwan, Alyssa : A____, Jojo : Heart, Theo : Torres (suppose to be SSSS!!! :P) All our eyecandies mwahaha

2009-10-01T06:34:00.004+08:00

Im blogging before i forget!! I dreamt that we got back together, how i wish it was trueeeeeeee. Ok but he sent me one message which tore me into pieces hahhahhaa. Then........

I WOKE UP.
spoiler isnt it :'(
OHOHOH And i woke up late tooooo. haha mum's bringing me to school ^-^

gotta go! Before i'm lateeeeeeee :D

2009-09-30T23:08:00.006+08:00

MY NEW HUSBAND ..........

*drumrolls*

Introduced by Amirah hahahhahaha. What's his name again? DREW ROY! Charming isnt he? ^^ I feel crazy todayyyyy i keep laughing and laughing and running and running and doing the cadbury thingy. Must be because of Shervinn Lee Si Ying!! Mwahahah anyway, exams are cominggggg. Instead of feeling stress during lessons, they were kinda relax as this teacher never come, that teacher never come and the rest was revision :D But they gave work, duhhhhhhh. After school, stayed back as usual. BUT!!!!! Very different for me okie, i studied chem !!! Not like some people play poker HAHHAHA! Bus 15 with sherv ^^ Came home, yadidadadada and watched tvvvvv till nw hehe.

Someone's birthday on sunday uhhhhhhhhh !!!

my internet keesiao already, so god damn slow! Gnna tumblr tmrrrrrrr.
Ok baibaibaibaibaibaibaibaibai hehhee :D

2009-09-30T04:16:00.003+08:00

BECOMESSSSSSSSSSSSSS

hahahha so funny sia, hw i wish i can do the cadbury eyebrow!!

CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT IS LOVE?

2009-09-30T03:47:00.002+08:00

will you say that it's me and you again?

2009-09-29T17:16:00.016+08:00

OMG I THINK MY CHINESE COMPO CMI ALREADY !!!

I wrote question 3, the rest of the questions so chim one, i only understand this question haaaah, and it's smth bout um um, being touched? i stoned for 10 mins and remembered how you melt my heart with the rose and cake + rose. I ended up writing bout handicaps, then then got a group of guys who play guitar, help him play and sing then help collect more money lololol i think i wrote crap haha! Why you all write 2 pages while i only wrote bout 1 page!! :( btw is guitar, 吉它? looking at the bright side, i think i wrote well for my eng compo hehehehe it's always about someone dying and the ending unfinished. This time i wrote that my mum died, father drunkard and my last sentence was : Aunt, I am sorry. HAHAHA Abit no link to the question but alah at least got abit link lah. Now that i'm laughing at what i wrote, i think both also cmi :P But ok la! Better than mid years oneeeee

2009-09-28T21:55:00.005+08:00

Talking a break from studying heeeeeeehe. My eyes are gonna shut down soon but i must tahan until i'm confident in tmr's paper! It's paper 1 tmr and the we have to wait 1 more week until the main papers will start. How i wish papers are ending soon!! Mum booked the chalet already. 30 NOV - 2 DEC. Omgeeeee i'm so excited, bro doesnt even know bout it :D Wonder what his face will be like when we surprise him! (his birthday on 30NOV) I feel like a gooooood sister hehe ^^v I hope jy's feeling better now, she went home halfway through school :( Miss youuuuuuuuu. I'm going to reply tags! :D

> Kendra : Oh ya, my lappy's fixed already hehe thanks anyway!! (L)
> Zoee : My mum's the best right! haha
> Joyce : I miss you tooooo. How's you :(
> Eline : Ok!!
> Keith : Yup a very long time indeed hehe! Relinked you already :D
> Icecream : Thx! How're the 3 of you?
> Amirah : Hahahhaa then who my husband sia. Help me find hot and cute angmoh guys!
> Ryan : HAHAHHA All hamsters look like yj !!
> Michelle : Thx girl ^^
> Chinyan : heartssssss!!
> Valerie : Thanks val :D :D
> Theresa : Ah-li-ga-tok!
> Genevieve : Aww thankss :)
> Avere : Hahaha *smiling*
> Jiayi : What shall be my 2nd step? hehe MRS YAN!
> Lina : (L) (L) (L) !!
> Alyssa : Seems like it's me who missed out the popular sales fun!
> Guest : Thanks but... looking at the way things are right now, i dont think theres any point hanging on anymore haha.
> Sherv : BHB AH.
> Jojo : Hahahhaha seriously!! She cant stop blabbering bout you *stares*
> Passer-by : Im trying to ^^
> Yuanyi : THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!!
> :D : Time WILL heal everything :)

2009-09-27T21:38:00.001+08:00

what can i do to get you back? :(
after not crying over you for 2/3 days, i'm shedding tears at the thought of you again..

2009-09-27T17:55:00.002+08:00

I MISS YOU IZWAN :'(

i want to study....

2009-09-27T16:19:00.004+08:00

But i've been ~~reading~~/looking/staring at the exact same book, at the exact same chapter, at the exact same page, at the exact same paragraph, at the exact same sentence, at the exact same words for THREE HOURS. Alah i'm going nowhere. I wonder if it's true when you asked me not to give up and hang on, but why are you talking bout her in your plurk. I wonder if it's true that you're doing fine without me, cuz i aint.. you're the only one i let inside my heart :(

2009-09-27T02:11:00.000+08:00

Miss Enormous Lina C. Kobayashi gave me a very very very very very longg motivational talk after talking lots of nonsense hahah! But anyway the talk was very meaningful and after reading it, i got alot of confidence in myself!! boooooyah i can do it :D
I LOVE YOU LINANANANANA

I love you, i really do. For these 7 days without you, i've done the silliest thing that i can think of just to stop this pain. but also, I've learnt that i can live even with or without you. It's just the matter of being happier or sadder, secure or not secure, free of not free, loved or not loved. But if you were to ask me back again, my heart will get weak, soften and go back to you despite all the warnings from my friends. I have to be strong. I know if i let go, it'll be the bestest thing for you. I'll try, i'll try my hardest.

2009-09-26T18:37:00.007+08:00

Suddenly i'm stuck on how to start in post ok, ummm. People are still here but we only studied for 45 mins. Jojo's playing BINGO with my sis now hehe! Im hungryyy, going out for dinner with them soooon :)

Came back from dinner, really wanted to study but somebody was so full of ghost stories, now i'm scared @ 12AM againn :( But nevermind, am really really gonna mug starting from tomorrow! Ok we played CROSSWORDS haha fun right fun right! Thought about lots of stylomilo words and sentences haha. I learnt a new word !!! ABS :D Hey i got ABS leh! ^^

Somebody got got my name ehhhhhhhhhhhh ^^v haha lazy to upload the rests of the pix (actually not lazy but the words we put were kinda... er sick haha) but i'm going to end this post with
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JOJO'S FACE LA DUHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! The sister-stealing :(
My sis like superglue, keep sticking to her.
Jojo keep calling her 'dear' toooo!!! Grrrrrr

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i want to let go, i want to forget, i want to stop this heartache, i want to be happy. But i keep thinking of you. Do you know that when you talk to me, my heart pumps very quickly? Do you know that i look at your photo every day? Do you know that i still keep all your messages? Do you know that i still stare at my phone, waiting for your messages?Do you know that my mum is asking me about you every now and then, and i dont know how to answer back? Do you know that i'm still waiting? I want to let go cuz i dont like people giving me high hopes and let me down next. You asked me not to give up yet, gave me high hopes but when i read your blog, you're talking about another girl. Get what i mean? :(

2009-09-26T15:28:00.001+08:00

i'm going to give up. i'm letting go :) and i'll do it, step by step.. changing my blog link will be my first. so, tadaaah! Will reply to tags when i'm free-er. Waiting for people to come my house to "study"

2009-09-26T12:17:00.003+08:00

i am hanging on, i am not giving up like what you asked me to.
but why is it, that i feel that you dont mean what you said?
it's never gonna happen, why am i still pinning on high hopes?
you've got her, you've got her already.. :'(

2009-09-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

imy imy imy!!! I cant do anything but think of you. tdy's a lil weird. I've been thinking all of our beautiful moments and smiling whole day longgg :) Okie i'm lazy to continueeee.

2009-09-24T18:37:00.004+08:00

No my mum dint think you're a bad guy :) you dont know how much she wants to meet you as since when i'm with you, i've been smiling, laughing and i talked bout you almost every single day. Everything's gone now..

2009-09-24T01:51:00.002+08:00

mummy never fails to make me smile laugh jump hahhaha.
she came home late today, seeing me still awake.
and she started a woman to woman talk until my bro and ah ma came to kpo.

funny conversation @ tumblr!!!

hahhaa okkkk gnna continue studying geog
i'm becoming a vampireeeee!

2009-09-23T17:50:00.014+08:00

hate to put it this way.........................................

seeing the way you talk to me, seeing the way you act in front of me, seeing how you walked away from me. you're so heartless, cruel. You never cherish anything that i did for you, bought for you. the ring and bracelet is still with vp am i right? Guess you dont need them anymore. i should have known, i should have ran away from the beginning. I never thought falling in love with you would be a mistake. I trusted you, i trusted that you would not break my heart like how the others did. I thought you were different, i guess you're just the same as the other. I can't forget the time you used to cuddle me in your arms, listening to your heart beating. I can't forget the time you used to whisper in my ears. I can't forget the time you used to tell me that nothing's gonna happen to us, nothing will break the both of us up and we'll last. You were the best, you could never be replaced. I guess, i'm really just a replacement for you. Now, i'm the one who's being replaced. How can your heart change so fast? I had so many dreams about you and me. About all the places we could go, my aunt's wedding, my family chalet.. I was naive, i got lost in your eyes. You're having fun, while i'm thinking we're still together. You walked out of my life, without a warning. You tore me down. I lost my sense of wrong and right.

I AM PERFECTLY FINE :)

I just want to stop this excruciating pain. Why do i always get hurt? I want to beg for forgiveness. i said sorry and gave in thousands of times. Yet what do i get in return... i've never said "break" even when we quarrel very badly. Each time we quarrel, i get to know you more, to know what you hate all all those stuff (but you've nvr told me that you hate girls to drink/smoke, i'll stop doing them nw), i thought you were strong enough to hold on. All i did was to love someone with my whole heart. But you changed your mind. I'm still dreaming of the day we be together once again. I still have high hopes on you. I wanna hate you, but i can't bring myself to. I never thought this would happen to me. Guess now i finally realised, this isn't a fairy tale. I thought i could get over it. Tears fill my eyes as i'm typing these. Why am i still crying for you? Why am i still worried sick when i knew that you're injured? Why am i still thinking of you every minute? Why am i still like this when i know that someone had replaced me and someone is there to take care of you instead of me? I'll never get over you. I was naive, is naive, and will forever be naive. I dont know if i should say this but I'll be waiting for your call/msges. Trust me, i will be waiting even if it takes forever. Cant wait to show all the scars you left me hun, if i ever get to see you again. how should i end this, i love you?

2009-09-23T06:09:00.004+08:00

3rd day, without you...................................
i dont know what to do anymore. i feel helpless, each time i see you in school, i'll just run away, break down and cry. i cant control my feelings anymore. everyday, i would type 'how're you doing?' but i dint have any balls to send them to you. i knew, i knew that the feelings you had for me was fading but i couldnt do much as we were in a bad quarrel. this is happening for the second time, but this went worse.. i dont know if i should hang on or let go, coz the chance is 0%. whichever way it is, i guess you dont care / worry bout me anymore. Your ________ will lead you to your answers you're looking for. i should be happy that you're happy with your life now :)

2009-09-22T03:32:00.004+08:00

Is forever over?

spent 2 nights crying... you dont know how much you mean to me. i cant let go nw, but i know i have to as you've already moved on the minute you let me go. the slightest things that you do, changing your status and stuff, hurts me so deeply as it meant that i dont stand any chance anymore. i dont know why i'm so into you, my heart just keeps clinging on to you. every song i listen to, reminds me of you. my mind's full of you, but my heart's empty. i miss the way you hug me, i love the way you say "Nothing's gonna happen to us. I wont leave you" when i felt insecure. i wish everything you said then, was true....

im gnna mia, until i feel better. i need to learn to pick myself up and lean to live without... you it's impossible but i'll have to try. doesnt matter sleepless nights like this, doesnt matter the countless tears i teared. time will heal everything

2009-09-21T09:44:00.021+08:00

you left, once again. i dnt knw hw to react knwing that you've found your other half who you'll be with forever. nth can explain this heartache i'm feeling right nw, it's just pain, pain, pain and more pain. i wish, i wish that i can have you once more. but i guess you're really serious abt this. you've always been 1 step ahead of me, why wnt you just wait for me? ): you've always been one leading me on, telling me nt to up. why is it that it's always you who let go first? i love you, i really really do. the forevers that i said, is forever true. the promises that i made, will nt be empty.

You'll still be the only one i call 'dear/hun/babyboy/bb'
You'll still be the only one i wish to talk to online/phone/sms
You'll still be the only one i play ard with
You'll still be the only one i trust the most
You'll still be the only one i want to webcam with
You'll still be the only one i want to go out with
You'll still be the only one i'll hug
You'll still be the only one i'll hold
You'll still be the only one that i'll cry for
You'll still be the only one whose lips i kiss
You'll still be the only one who can melt my heart totally
theres alot of stuff that you'll still and can only be.
and most of all, you'll still be the one i want to be with, you'll only be the one i love.
you knw i'll never be happy without you, i am nth without you

thx for all the wonderful memories that you gave me. they are really really beautiful. i am glad that i had cherished every single one of them. i wish you all the best in everything you do. Esp your olvl! last long, i love you, i always will

( supposed to be our wedding photo, rmber? :') )

thankssssssssssssssssssssssssss , really thx for everything babyboy.

you make me smile like the sun, falling out of the bed, sing like a bird~

2009-09-20T00:27:00.011+08:00

lazy to copy and paste letters, dnt get it? nvm i lazy to say story hahaha thank you mum, for canceling all your appointments and bringing me out for the entire day when i told you im sad, you're the best mum in the whole wide worldddddddddddddd !!! i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you ^^

"I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of feeling empty inside. I’m tired of feeling worthless. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of feeling crazy. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of yelling. I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I’m tired of missing things. I’m tired of missing people. I’m tired of remembering. I’m tired of wishing I could start all over. I’m tired of not being able to just let go. I’m tired of faking it. I’m tired of being different. I’m tired of being angry. I’m tired of needing help. I’m tired of always wondering when God is finally going to let me be happy. Most of all, I just I’m just tired of being tired."

(via runawaytrain)

My mr right :D

2009-09-18T16:25:00.001+08:00

(i wrote this, a few days ago...)

Izzie, today's our sixth month. We'll be spending our anniversaries alone for these 2 months because of your prelims and olvl. Must do well ok ok ok! ^^ For these 6 months, i've enjoyed every little moment i've spent with you. It's always filled with laughters except maybe one or two of them just because of our sudden cold wars, im glad we barely have them now right hehe. MAN YOU'RE THE SWEETEST SWEETEST BOY I'VE EVER MET !!! I've never been sooooo myself in front of any boyfriends i had before you. I know everytime when you go out with me, you feel like covering your face becuz i always talk very loud right :P Im willing to doll myself up for you even tho i like to just anyhow wear. I'm willing to stand in the mrt, from jurong all the way to pasir ris just to give you a kiss. I'm willing to stay up and accompany you on the phone for hours and hours and hours even if i'm very tired. I never want you to leave as i've felt the pain when you left me months ago. I'm glad that we've picked ourselves up and grew even strong into the relationship. I love you babeh you know i really really do! i miss you so much still. My love for you, it's forever and always there. The past was sweet, but the present is gonna be even sweeter. heheee i'm still waiting for you to cook for me ah!!! :) I love you 4ever and ever and ever!

suppose to be out with you nw, yet i'm @ mac, hoping that you'll change your mind and meet me. i dont know whats gonna happen to us, cuz we're quarreling like mad now. i'm sorry, i seriously am. i've done everything i could but nth worked. take care of yourself.

feeling so far, so far away from you

2009-09-16T20:43:00.013+08:00

i feel like handcuffing your hands with mine and throw the key to somewhere we can never find so you'll be with me forever. i'm feeling the exact same way like how you felt when i was leaving for camp. or maybe even worse imy so so much i miss all the times that i've spent with you do you feel the same too?

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have to concentrate have to concentrate have to concentrate!!!
home econs and i can never get along

things i'll only say

2009-09-15T20:53:00.004+08:00

IZWAN BB, I MISS YOU!!!

I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I WANT YOU I MISS YOU I WANT YOU I WANT YOU I WANT YOU I WANT YOU I NEED TO SEE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOON

miss the times when my phone's filled with your messages
you know you mean the world to me :)
3 more days darling hehe

i'm stuck at looking at chiobu blogs and left my drawing block blank fuck i buey tahan me why i always leave my work last min and have the teacher chasing after me. Nw i have to complete 3 assignments and elearning one :( Theres maths test tmr too! ok byebye going chiong now. Luv ya jy lessie *hugs

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Facebook says : Inbox(1)
Julie clicks on Inbox....

THIS IS MY MUMMY CHUA :D
she's gnna stalk me, 4 sureeeeeee

2009-09-13T02:26:00.003+08:00

ALYZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ, HOW?

i cant sleep too

I MISS MY C++ 222222222222222 !!!!!! :(

i used to be love drunk now i'm hangover

2009-09-13T00:18:00.005+08:00

I forgot that i had tution this morning, tution teacher was waiting outside pressing the doorbell while i was sleeping like a log. But mum shook me up, teacher helped me with the holiday homework so...... i'm done with chinese! hehe dreaded going for music class, stupid apunehneh teacher. i'm glad that next week's my last lesson :3 After that, met jerron then met alyssa. Trained down to pasir ris. Went to library to find jojo. Adam and valentine came, we've been asked to move away by the librarian thrice until we pekchek and went to mac instead. There was no seats, so we had to sit outside. Jerron's "serious" is............. talking and talking haha i doubt he's ever serious! @ 6, i left them and went to tamp and waited for mum to fetch me. We went town :D Shopped around and bought many stuff! I feel like a womannnnnn hehe. I've got a pair of cute shoes, so cuteee i feel like wearing it wherever i go. Probably heading to town again with mum, she says tmr last day of holiday must quick quick go shop haha! OK I LOVE YOU MUMMY !!

i'm going to try to do my art. I say i'll tryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :P
aww man school's gnna start soon :(

2009-09-12T04:32:00.001+08:00

Dear Santa,

i know it's not Christmas yet but can you get me a time machine so that i can go back to 100909, 8:00 pm pleaaaaaaase? i swear i'll stop crying, thinking negatively, complete my elearning by tomorrow. I'll study hard for my eoy too. I'll go to every floorball training, and be responsible as a class chairman. I'll stop spending money on lots of food and start saving them up for the holidays so that i'll not ask my mum for money whenever i want to go out. I'll bring smiles to everyone faces as i'll laugh even how sad am i. I'll keep my mouth shut and stop gossiping bout others. I'll cut down on complaining in tumblr and keep those sad stuff inside me. I'll gather all my luck up whenever i play blackjack with my friends so that i can stay away from beer. I'll stop doing things that will upset my bb and ruining this relationship. I'll be less sensitive, less me me me! Can i have a time machine pleaseeee? I really want to go back to that moment, even if its for 1 minute. Love you Mr Santa :)

Lots of love,
Julie

izzie, ive met other guys but you're my fav boy
6 more days!

i love you izwannnnn my cute boy hehehhee

2009-09-11T19:14:00.002+08:00

he looks like some airport person, dont ya think? :D

i'm blessed, so blessed with you :D

2009-09-11T00:35:00.025+08:00

i'm kinda shy bout this 8D
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OMG DONT LAUGHHHHHH Vian i finally got my lao fu zi spec after so many months!!

070909, Monday

Went back school to print elearning with jerron jon lidia sherv jojo. Went to simei for ljs and then head down to jon's house. Supposed to do elearning but we played his comp games instead. Sumo powerrrrr! After that, i went to find bb and passed him his bubble tea :)

080909, Tuesday

Bb and yy came over to my house, actually want do hw but we talk and talk and talk haha. After that, sherv jojo adam jon came. Then bb and yy left, jerron and alyz came. We started doing hw, had a mini picnic too! Only did some questions then the guys thought me how to play daidi :D Finally i knew how to play anddddd tadah i got addicted to it. We played all the way till 10pm. Oh we played blackjack too! But nvr use $ so we had forfeit instead. J got to wear my braaaaaaaaa. Damn funny, we all laugh until want urine. Okok halfway thru, the guys helped me clean up my room and change bedsheet cuz very smellyyyyyy hehe

090909, Wednesday

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO DENGDENGGGGGGGGG! ^^
-went shopping with family-

100909, Thursday

Went back school for chinese lesson. It wasssssssssssssssssss damn damn boring. Was late 30 mins as we went to canteen and did some maths to waste time. After lesson, went comp lab to print stuff and headed to ws. Ate and went library. Wanted to do hw, but ended up playing daidi! Damn who brought the poker cards?!?! i swear i'm addicted to it since i knew hw to play :D When i came home, jy msged me!! Bb, see i've got my lesbian partner too! ^-^

During the night time, went out with bb and yy. Both of them was late 30 mins, but.. bb melted my heart by coming with a cake which he baked himself + roses! Awwwwwwwwwwww who's heart wont melt you tell me hehe ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Ty ok baby :D Tho you spoilt my plan for baking cookies for our sixth! Nvm i think of another one haha. Watched 'Where got ghost', it's so funnnnnyyyy. ^^v After that went t1 open space to take photossss

I'm more afraid to lose him to yy (his gay partner) than to any other woman.

sweet right sweet right sweet right!!! :P :P
i knw i short la haha

BECAUSE

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THE CAKE'S AWESOME
THE ROSES ARE AWESOME
TODAY'S AWESOME
HUN YOU'RE AWESOME
WITH YOU, EVERYTHING'S SO SUPER UBER BUBER ZUBER AWESOME!!! ^^
"Forever is what I’ve always imagined myself sharing with you."

I LOVE YOU IZWANNNNNNN FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER MWACKSSSSS xINFINITY!!!
missing you like crazieeeeeee nw.

dreams dreams dreams or is it nightmare?

2009-09-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

am lazy to blog bout today, will blog about it tmr ok ok ok? OH OH OH My negative thoughts became my dream last night. Sigh must not think too much next time. going back school tmr to print e-learning paper with 2/1 gang hehehe i miss so many peeeeeeeeople. Esp jiayi, dont worry i'll oovoo with you soon!! Blog tmrrrrr ^^v

keeping those thoughts to myself

2009-09-05T23:39:00.007+08:00

today's not a good, was being ms. grumpy for the entire day and went running @ bedok resovior (idk hw spell) to relief myself. i keep thinking negatively.. oh well for jy, i'll :D oh tumblr tumblr~

everlasting love love

2009-09-05T09:27:00.006+08:00

alrightey i'll post a proper post haha wasnt in the blogging mood last night ^-^

OH YES ITS THE HOLIDAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
but there's lots of homework.

my results are... disappointing. i failed my eng, i dont dare give my mum sign :(
ok so ytd after school, theo shervinn jerron haikal adam and yuwei came over to my house and we watched UP. We bumped into Mr dominic below my block so we asked him over too. We went up first and set up everything mom was fixing the speaker cuz no sound came out. When mr dominic came, got sound already i guess he had some good luck charm on him haha. The show overall was nice and so cuteeeeeeeeee! The small boy really look like jonie one of the reason why i wanna watch it.Walked them to bus stop then mr dominic and i went to the market to buy bubbletea he treat me :3 Talked bout lots of stuff- school, regina, vivian, shervinn hahaha. During the night time, i watched some other shows + Lion king and webcam with bb.

woke up early today for tution but my teacher's late.. so bored right nw should i play dress up?
maybe i should start doing my homeworks but after i do smth for bb! hehe

Saw this in jojo's blog and it got me laughing for 3 min!
Seeee my faceeeeee :D apparently we were watching porn haha nah just kiddin'
that's when we oovoo with jojo and jiayi when we're at jerron's house.

"you're the metal, i'm the non-metal. Together, we'll be like ionic bonds"

2009-09-02T16:24:00.005+08:00

i just saw this and i melt... thx jy i love ya :')
i knw i've been neglecting you these days sorry we'll be back like the hyper lessie k ^^

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Convo @ jerron's house :

Julz luv Iz! says: HI
Jerron says: oh hi where are u now?
Julz luv Iz! says: um at jerron's house. You?
Jerron says: oh cool same leh
Julz luv Iz! says: really? i dint see you around
Jerron says: which part are u at?
Julz luv Iz! says: i guess you're too.... SHORT
Jerron says: oh i guess u are too parallel, too flat
Jerron says: where u?
Julz luv Iz! says: in the studyroom.
Jerron says: oh cool i go find u k? but i scared u too small sia
Jerron says: i (L) izwan u?
Jerron says: oh ... izwan is mine k? u take the noob jerron guy

chatting with valentine when he's just right behind me hah
i wonder why bibi attracts gays must be tooooooooo man
i luv you bi

izwan, my husband <3

2009-08-31T16:09:00.010+08:00

baby thx for surprising me with the rose,i swear i was about to cry ilyyyyyyyy! no one has ever done these stuff to me, and i'm glad you're the first. i'm so happie that we're spending more time together now (i'm cherishing every moment) tho' i knw you'll be like a busy business man soon due to your exams, it's ok i knw everything will pay off and i'll be hugging you all day long soon. 2 more months! our next photo together will after that 2 months k, no more 5 hehe. i wanna be with you 4evaa mwacksss

Today is, the first time you got me a rose, the first time we walk in pasir ris park, the first time you piggybacked me

i knw i screwed today up so sorryyyyy dear i'll make it up to you!
hate you tummy

tumblr will be whr i store my feelings

a place called love

2009-08-30T15:56:00.002+08:00

http://iloveizwan.tumblr.com
hw cool nah i'm not shifting there. Just feelin' bored.
whr are you my dear boy.. :(
why is this happening again, one day sweet the following day sour
theres a girl shouting and crying at the same time over the phone @ the busstop downstairs o.o
"why are you treating me like this! do you love me anot!"

obssesed with you

2009-08-29T23:36:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY CHERYLLLLLLLLLLLLL ^.^
hope you enjoyed your surprised day. hehe luv you *hugz*

Only have one pic with me :(

no one can ever replace you, my heart is forever yours
i am blessed to have you babyboy

send the rest of the pix to me soon okie dear? ^^

love in the air

2009-08-27T20:33:00.005+08:00

oovoo with alyssa jon jerron nw while doing hw. i'm a first timer you dont wanna knw how it makes me wonder haha it's so coooooooooooool i like to play with the effects as you can see but i'm still trying to get the hang of it waiting for jerron to get his webcam!! ^^ Anybardie from 2/1 add me plz juliechua@hotmail.com

have not fall for a long time i'm always careful ever since the incident when i lose half of my tooth. but i slipped and fell in the home economic room during practical today sigh nw my buttock got balaku. lucky class was concentrating on their dishes instead of laughing at me if not i will..... paiseh :$

oh well i'm glad that practical's finally over
next monday's gnna be a tiring day again!
hope that i wont complain after that haha
luv 2/1 gang

2009-08-25T15:02:00.002+08:00

am at jerron's house with alyssa shervinn jon valentine yuwei !!
his house's so hugggggggggggggggg & the view's awesome ^^

looking back at the old us

2009-08-24T20:20:00.003+08:00

ears got problem miss mr blind
i have problem listening but your ears can help me hear
you have problem looking but my eyes can help you see
aint we perfect for each other now? :)

today is a tiring day!! i wish i can just drop on my bed now oh well had lots of laughters during PE today! 1st time seeing mr david laugh until drop on ground too hah hah! i guess my class's too jokers :3 After school got ready for interhouse games, i went for floorball and inno was.............. 1st!! We won for all the matches hehehe was jumping up and down all the while. After that went to walk 4km for cross country on next monday. Went minimart to eat with sherv theo jy can bus 15 with sherv. Was dizzy all the way :( i feel tiredddddddd i wonder if jiayi and sherv are as dead as me..

Tmr - mo xie
wed - home ec test, eng test
thurs - home ec pratical, chinese test,
fri - eng test

2009-08-24T00:41:00.002+08:00

suppose to be doing ihum but..
i'm playing msn jigsaw puzzle with jerron using jon's photo instead

:( :( :(

thought of you and smiled from ears to ears

2009-08-23T18:42:00.003+08:00

FKING HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPIE TO THE MAX
i tried cooking mee goreng just nw, was worried that i'll screw it up but nah i dint! Ahma offered me her helping hands too she's #1 professional cook and i'm #2 hahahhaha anyway it turn out hmmmmm awesome ^^v i feel so so accomplished! i wanna cook for izwan you're always the first one who comes to my mind when i'm doing such stuff :> heh it's only 6 55 and i'm feeling tired already.

2009-08-23T13:26:00.010+08:00

busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy

NEED TO COMPLETE HOME ECON IHUM AND MATHS BY TONIGHT!!!
woke up early tdy just to do all my hws but sis distracted me by switching on the tv and tada my 2h gone just like that. need to get away from all these distractions gimme motivations pills so i can stay motivated like this! Interhouse tmr hehhe i'm so excited oh theres lots of test this coming week too i hate course work sighhhhhhhhhhh why i like to do last min one hw regretful :( okie gnna stop complaining and finish up everything gdbaiiii

Dear babyboy/sunshine/hun/dear/darling/laogong/blindman,
mwacks ily so so much y'know hehehhehe i think of you each time i feel stressed up
i knw i havent been doing my part well as your girlfriend
but well, i hope you're doing fine on your side *hugs*
oxoxox

at the other end of the world

2009-08-22T16:39:00.006+08:00

cooked dinner for family using home ec practical recipessssssssss
sigh bandung is a failure cuz.. it went chao da, i dont know how it went chao da, but ya.. but the banana fritters and pineapple fried rice is a yum yum! hehehehhehe just finished with teachers day slide, aww man i'm late by a day dont know whether they'll still put it up or not :( i have lots and lots of photos to upload! Sorry 2/1 gang i'm so lazy
gnna search for a online photo album so you guys can grab from there

mum broke my heart into a thousand thousand pieces by saying : I'm not eating
i'm sorry mummy, for saying that i'll leave you for him. i hope you'll understand i love you

2009-08-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

aint good. i hope things wont change and the word forever is true.
the invincible bond will stay strong right? miss you.

lost and insecure

2009-08-20T22:20:00.009+08:00

you're so fucking childish
i feel like chopping off your fingers so you cant type nonsense
our class is somewhat bonded already and you have to spoil everything?
hate you hate you hate you for making me so pissed!!

on a lighter note: having mini picnic with girls during recess tmr!
must squeeze many many food into their tiny stomachs before fasting month starts :>
go go go!

ouch

2009-08-18T19:06:00.003+08:00

sunflowers blooming

2009-08-18T00:21:00.003+08:00

i feel like a sore loser hahha! i'm scared of the dark.... again Once i off the light, i'll close my eyes, jump on the bed and use the blanket to cover my head and not move sigh why i so chicken.

felt as tho' smth was piercing thru my heart and went silent for the one whole period but hyped up again for rehearsal. After rehearsal, hang out with the usual ppl. Went to ws for bk then went to t1. I feel like a sunflower whenever i'm with them, never ending laughters

OH THE FUNNIEST PART. We went to the open area and everyone wants to eat the sour sweet that dont know who bought. All of us took one except the boys and alyssa. We went on saying : "Eh lets see who got the funniest reaction!" Jonie kept saying that my reaction will be the funniest but jiayi's one very funny! Haha Alyssa took video of us eating that sour sweet. When we played the video, all of us seemed to have sucked in helium gas :3

After everything, i walked home with shervinn :D

Worlds apart

2009-08-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

i'm never good enough for you. I'm still trying to be the best but you dint give me a chance. Whats wrong with being weak in front of me? We're suppose to be ourselves when we're together aint we. Without you by my side, i'm like a withering rose. i need you.

I dreamt of you last night

2009-08-16T13:04:00.003+08:00

150 DAYS BABYBOY!!!!!!
i'll hang on till the very end. 2 more days to our 5th ^^

sorry but i had to say this out, i guess this is the only way i can talk to you :(

dear, i did message you in the mornings. But you dint reply any of them. At the foyer, i dint see you cos' i was talking with my friends and i'm sorry bout that :( Sorry i dint tell you i was out with who, it was a last minute thing and you dint reply my msges ytd too.. Sorry i couldnt make it yesterday, it was really no choice. My mum asked for a family time and it's once in awhile. she's usually at work or accompanying her boyfriend. You asked if i want to meet you for a short while, you know how happy i am? I stood there, waiting for your call or msg but end up, you said no need meet already. Still i msged you, knowing that you're upset, that im sorry i'll make it up to you and i love you. But i just get a 'orh' in return? When i asked you out, you give me all sorts of reason but i dint give you any attitude, did i :( I am always here for you, but you never told me anything bout' you. You never told me what your problems are, you never told me what you're not happy about. Even when you're with me, you always have a smile on your face, like a no-problem guy. Why? You dont feel comfortable with me or am i too young to understand what you're going through? Both of us wants to get back to the old times so, why cant we? I told you, i'll wait for you and i will hun. I wont give up halfway through.

he wasnt there

2009-08-15T19:56:00.002+08:00

watched floorball match (mr leong's team!) with hakim just now @ tamp stadium.
cool cool my heart was pumping so quickly the guyz ran so fast.
hw i wish i can be like them :(
AWESOMENESS OF JB \m/

No mood for family time and pizza anymore sigh
have to control my emotions well and be a silent warrior
like sherv! ^^v

Brighter side of life

2009-08-14T16:01:00.004+08:00

I.AM.SO.HAPPY
i screamed with jojo when i heard the news.
okie shhhhhhhhhhhhhh :3

Happy birthday to darwiis!
luv you romeo.

Lessons for these days were borrrring ttm. Cant help falling asleep for almost every lesson :( however was tipsy high during the breaks. Anw bonded with class cuz of the dance practices we had omg i luv 2/1 to the core ^^ Ate lunch or whatever meal with half the class (plus some others) 3 times after school continuously including today! Adam treat us drinks. After eating, went ntuc and took free food samples. I love the fish thingy :( Came home after that.

Take care vian and jy!!! Must come school on monday k? How lonely school was without you 2 :(

no more high hopes

2009-08-09T14:52:00.009+08:00

BACKTOSQUAREONE :'(

at times i feel so close to your heart at times i feel so far away.. you left me behind hoping that you wont do silly stuff over there, hoping nothing will happen to you. i thought i could wait patiently for just 3 more months but the more i think of it, the longer it gets, the more time fly slower. we used to be enthu about everything, about our next anniversary, about what we wanna do when we meet, everything's so different without you ard :( i hope you'll be by my side soon baby. imy mwacks

2009-08-08T00:00:00.003+08:00

Today was awesome really. Joyce saved my boring saturday :] Met her at library used laptop and looked up for chio chio girls haha feels like our favourite hobby. Walked around t1 and tm then walked back to library again and took photos. Laughed so much at our candid and retarded faces :3 She came over to my house to do teacher day card but ended up, she showed me pretty girls blogs again hehe. WIFE IIE LURB EUUOU MORE THAN ANIBARDIE OKIE MWACKS

kill kill lets kill the love cupid

2009-08-07T23:40:00.001+08:00

stucked in school for a few mins due to heavy rain today. found out that js know how to play the piano the boys also dug out books from the recycling dustbin bookworms! Walked regina home and was on the way home however i bumped into classmates at tamp mrt. Went to t1 to shopped around and help glendon choose his formal shirt. Walked from shop to shop bumped into alot of ppl with familiar faces and this is the first time i shop with guys. Well they're almost like girls trying one shirt after another and askin' opinions from the friends, somehow choosey too :P Glendon finally bought his formal shirt and we went over to mac to slack plus gossip dug out the evil side of ashwin haha. I luv it when i feel that they trust me hor hor hor? :3 G left and i'm left with jonathan and ashy. Walked around tm, first time i dint get bored with the mall walked in the shops that i've been to numerous of times but today it seems new to me. I NEED 44 BUCKS C'MON SAVE SAVE SAVE!!! Been starving myself these days :( haha im going to stop blabbering nonsense now.

oh no i'm down with fever but i'm still eating pocky yum. lucky it's the weekends..

am tired good night!

2009-08-05T23:03:00.002+08:00

LUV MY CLASS 2 THE MAX

oleh oleh oleh oleh *dance around*
mwacks all of you :3

if this isnt love

2009-08-02T19:47:00.001+08:00

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you....
The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'
(taken from underage-girl.bs)

Where's this guy now :(

one minute this, one minute that.
Or am i thinking too much?

how people changed

2009-08-02T11:24:00.015+08:00

trying to face reality, it'll never be the same anymore..
i'd never understand unless you tell me my dear

doubt i'll be as active already mia mia mia
am down with flu and cough too adding on i have tummyaches since last night and
couldnt sleep properly sigh hittm i dont want go school :(
imy mr.blind .. i hope everything will be fine between us ily hunboy.

GOOD BYE

& THANK YOU RYAN BROTHER 4 EVERYTHING :)

Money honey by State of shock
Apologize + Beautiful mash up by Akon ,One Republic Ft. Kardinal Offishall
Down by Jay Sean Ft. Lil Wayne
Goodbye by Kristina Debarge
Takin Back My Love by Enrique Iglesias Ft. Ciara
Wanted by -
Battlefield by Jordin Sparks
Be With You by Akon
Beautiful by Akon
Cookie Jar by Gym Class Heros
Knock You Down by Keri Hilson
Love Like This by Natasha Beddingfield
Fire Burning by Sean Kingston
Take you there by Sean Kingston
Angel by Natasha Beddingfield
Pocketful Of Sunshine by Natasha Beddingfield
Blame It by Jamie Foxx Ft. T-Pain
If This Isn't Love by Jennifer Hudson
Lips of an angel by Hinder
Better than me by Hinder

2009-07-31T23:24:00.004+08:00

Have you ever tried burping and laughing at the same time?
It's funny really hahaha. I wanna try it again.
Met a pair of damn damn sweet couple today. how i envy them :z

Initially wanted to read stories bout pontianak cuz our whole class was talking bout it for the whole of last lesson. Actually me and those people around me was talking about the granny that sells the keropok (idk how spell) since ytd it is creepy plus valentine even drew it out. Thought of alot of crazy stuff like peeping into the door hole and you'll see the granny's eyes haha. Both valentine and daniel freaked out! Ahem well me too. Okie gonna have an early night.

will reply to tags tomorrow ^^
love you very much hun
good luck for your exam, must not give up halfway and finish the paper uh :)

running away

2009-07-30T19:40:00.000+08:00

i cant hold my tears back anymore cuz i've been too far away from you..

tryin' to be as patient as i can ever be
will wait for you, 4 months aint long right?
we've been thru so much, this is nothing to me.
I love you very very much, never ever thinking of letting you go.

Thank you for the love seeds, they'll always be special to me.
Thank you for the poems and the sweet card, it really touched my heart.
"No matter the distance apart, i would always be somewhere near"
I hope what you wrote in the card is true, forever love.

Happy birthday to you~

2009-07-29T23:13:00.002+08:00

Officially 4teen. Last year's definitely much much much more better but i still enjoyed myself today. Class sang me a birthday song and drew/wrote stuff on the whiteboard for me -touched- Daniel Ashwin Glendon Jon and some other guys were being assholes too, made me laugh so much haha. Thanks to those who gave me presents, wished me face to face via sms via phone. Am really happy okay :) After school, slacked awhile. Chit chat with Mr Leong with Regina Jieshen Howhow Glendon. Walk Regina home and came home. During the evening, met weihan at playground and thought that he would only give me chocolate but he gave me huge star lollipop instead and bought a small cake like the one J bought for me last yr! Omg fking touched never thought that he would do something like this btw he dont know how to sing chinese birthday song. Noob :>

VIAN AND REGINA 谢谢你们 FOR THE SKETCHBOOK! :)
Nearly cried reading hahaha.
And i updated my wall! Full of pictures now ^^
Btw jiayi get well and come school soon okie? Miss you muchies :(

我爱你们多多!!! Mwacks

Ichiban!!

2009-07-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

An old woman came knocking on my door this morning and begged for $$. She said 1$ also can, 2$ also can. I was heart softened but lazy to run back to my room open treasure box count the money so i just took out 2 golden coins from my pocket and gave it to her. She was so happy, she smiled at me with her bogeh tooth said thank you a numerous of times and walked off quickly. I feel like a kind soul :>

However i forced aunt to pay for our $102 dinner -evil smiles-
i love to eat ichiban!

you have to shoot them in their heads

2009-07-25T23:52:00.003+08:00

Hiez i'm a happy girl today. Tho' a lil tired as i stayed up waiting for someone's call last night ended up i still couldnt fall asleep. Today's great spent every min laughing and smiling however mum and i screamed at each other this morning as she scolded me for no reason. Went for music lesson, came home and had a last min date with ml hadi deng. Met them, went to mac, they were complaining how hungry they were but we had not $$ on us we had to share one pack of shaken with seaweed fries. Watched day of the dead it's a very gross show as the 'infected' people suddenly transform in flesh eating zombies which run twice as fast as the non-infected humans and attack them. Blood splashing around torned limbs half body and head flying off the body all over. Bloody disgusting yet i kept laughing when i see the zombies chasing after the human and eat their flesh. Deng and i was excited x1000000000. Joyce came and i left soon as i had to go dinner with family. Dint watch finish the show >: Dinner was heartiful to the max!! Haha sushi tomorrow leh hope my ahgong ahma auntie uncle will give me angbao for my birthday hehe. i feel like changing my blogskin yet again and switch back to stopandkiss cuz i prefer white backgrounds sigh sigh sigh hate myself for being flicked minded.

I wish i've got an empty heart like weihan hahaha

2009-07-23T20:25:00.004+08:00

Well, time flew today. I enjoyed every lesson :> Geog was so much interesting too! haha after school, had floorball training. Super duper to the max. Walked home with phua chu kim (hakim) after that.

Another day gone, without you

2009-07-22T16:01:00.010+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL!!! :>
14 but still underage! haha

sugerie day today again but i was falling asleep for geog and i have muscle cramps becuz of jogging with mum last night :z Walked to school and it rained. Shared vian's small moomoo umbrella with rahman and kel funny funny. I was feeling super cold the entire day :( Went crazy after school, walked to ws with floorball ppl + vian. Gwen was blushing and hot all the way. came home and ate my old chang kee curry puff! Yumyumz. And my fishie never come school today? >':
get well fishie darwiis ms siti! and you too, dearest..

put yourself in my shoes will ya?

2009-07-21T23:11:00.005+08:00

i was HYPER SUGERRRRRR BANANA MONKEY PIG COW DOG SHEEP & Weihan was CRAZY SUPERMAN WITH HIGH SUGAR LEVEL LOOK FOR BANANAS LIKE A MONKEY SUGAR LEVEL HIGH UNTILL CAN DIG TILL EARTH CORE. Anw bumped into him at simei when i was walking ard with mum this afternoon, he wanted to tell me his troubles but.... my mum and i walked in to a bra shop ^^ He was about to follow in lor!!! :P

I'm screaming i love you inside

2009-07-20T20:24:00.003+08:00

你问, 我爱你有多深
我爱你有几分
我的情也真, 我的爱也真
月亮代表我的心

I'm kinda happy today ^-^ Today very on a sugar high, but my energy ran out completely and now I feel really tired hehe okie not gonna post much abt what happened today. But i had fun with the 3 peepoz again! Cheer up joyce, first time we go out then never laugh laugh :( Eyebagz popping out cuz i dint get to sleep last night heeeehawwwwwww

once again i cant do much except asking you to get well soon, take care of yourself and hope that you're doing fine. useless i know, i love you.

one minute it's love and suddenly it's like a battlefield

2009-07-19T21:19:00.009+08:00

HI Anyone saw this guy above?
Been missing whole day long.

Name: Izwan Wong Zhong Jie
(mixed blood)
Age: 16 years old
Height: 168 - 170+ tall(?)
Weight : 53 kg
Eyes & hair: Black
Last seen: Yesterday, 18 July.

If you've seen him, plz contact me.
Msn: juliechua@hotmail.com
Reward will be given, depends on who you are ^^

THANK YOU VERY MUCH
(pssst not real one ah, i hope)

i've been missing you dearly, honeyboy.. :'(
I dont even know what you're doing, where you are.
Are you thinking of me too? Do you miss me?
Yes, what i said last night is true. I want to spend a lifetime with you. Each and every relationship is different. And ours, it just seemed so perfect to me. I cant find any reason to be angry with you about anymore. We dint argue about anything ever since we patched up. That's a good thing, isnt it :) But we dont msg each other as often as before, we dont walk to school together anymore, we dont meet each other after school anymore, you dont have any time for me, i dont follow you around like how i used to, we dont give each other goodbye kisses, you became less caring, colder and colder and colder.
... but i still love you as deeply hubby, very very mega much :)
i really do. do you love me like how i love you?
never ever letting you go.

The way your eyes sets out for her ....

2009-07-18T09:10:00.006+08:00

Haunting with vian regina yongjie ryan jiarui was awesome yesterday! ^^ I still cant get it why everybody can laugh when the ghost come out haha. Anw the story was great great great x1000000000000! tho' a lil scary and disgusting, it's touching cuz of motherly love haha i love my mum.

Yj took my phone and snapped himself. look like a squirrel, agree?
he should get braces ^^

& Happy 4th, babyboy :)
ireallymissyoureverything yes, everything..

you'll never know... :(

2009-07-16T22:18:00.005+08:00

First thing first, i finally met babyboy after 10,000000000000000000 years! (the previous 'coincidence' one isnt counted okieokie!) Happy to the max tho' it was just for a short while ^^ *hugz you tightly till your lungs pop!*

Did shepherd pie for f&n today, only taste a lil bit as i wanna save it for mr. blind. Looks disgusting but taste great haha. Sorry vian and regina for not letting you eat it, will let you eat my next dish hao bu hao :) Smth's wrong with mrs aziz today haha really! First thing daniel and i noticed about her : she's smiling happily at srinivas omg! Well, tdy lit lesson was a lil more interesting as it's abt the short stories. Mt and music = boring x.x

After school, -rushed to meet my sweetheart- then went to whitesands and met vian debra marcus andriette(?) Halfway, saw kel and jieshen. Walked ard gettin' inspirations for prezzie. How i wish there's a 'Presents for mums' shop.

2 more dayz i cant wait!!!! i love you prettyboyyyyy
you're the best i can ever get :)

BEST

2009-07-15T21:56:00.007+08:00

AM HIGH IDK WHY TOOOOOO. MUST BE CHEMISTRY!!! OR SOME OTHER STUFF. SO HIGH THAT I WENT TO FIND SOMEONE TO HIGH WITH............. TADAH COW TO D RESCUEEE~~~~~~~ TALKING ABOUT SO MANY CRAP WITH MANY CAPLOCKS AHAHAHHAHAHAHA

GLEN YOU FAT AND SHORT I TALL AND THIN!!!
OKIE LAME. ^-^

30 mins later ................................................................................................

I LOSE 0.02 KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MWAHAHAHAHA
I can be lighter if i dint go to long john *fulllllllllllllllllllllllest of regretzzzzzzz*

Awwwwww i lost my entertainment :(

Half-time lover

2009-07-15T18:07:00.004+08:00

Was pissed since last night cuz phone went sot sot but thx to vian's magic hands it revived and is back working fine. Hehe thanks darling, super duper happy.

Chem makes my handwriting ugly. Eng made me understand micheal jackson. Spent recess at r + v's classroom. Maths ate up my brain cells. Art made me laugh hardcore cuz the guys were horny with just fingers and bluetack? CME makes my heart pump cuz i got 'sabo-ed' and became chairman of the class. Well alot of us got sabo-ed. Worse thing is, Daniel's the vice-chair HAHAHA The 2 talkative + high people in class got such a role.

After school, sent regina home and headed to central for waffle cuz vian tempted me. Damn spoiled the chain of my diet. after that met yanqing and ljs for lunch :( Walked ard, went to t1, met some new friends, had a Happy Fruit Drink. And i have my eyes on a hugeeeeeeee mickey mouse super soft! Probably a present for myself? hehehe hope the price dont rise to 50$ nxt week. Slacked at open space then went home.

shit leh mo xie tmr :(

2009-07-14T22:53:00.000+08:00

LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH!! :)

With the lips of an angel

2009-07-13T15:58:00.006+08:00

Sang (advance) birthday song for miss siti once she stepped into class this morning. I sang so loudly that ..... Vian to Regina (in their class) : "You got hear Julie's voice?" Saved 2 birds' nest during pe, probably husband & wife? Good thing ms anne was in a good mood today, 'cause i scolded her siao. She thanked me anyway~

Grandma and aunt are on d way cuz both brother and mum fell sick.
boy how i wish i'm on the way to you too :'c

i can nvr think of a reason why we're like this right now.
Seems like there's so much i wanna tell you but i just couldn't say anything :(
love you to bits.

I hope you'll find a way back to me

2009-07-12T14:41:00.003+08:00

Out with 3 people ytd. Came home, was tired decided to turn in early. Slept for 1h and woke up by some stuff. Couldn't sleep after that, so i did some hw. Ended up sleeping at my table and woke up with a sore neck this morning.

This week, i've been sleeping early, doing homework, coming home straight after walking regina home and central for food. I've this strong urge to put 110% effort in my work recently, its just not me but it's a good thing no?

I guess thats all
laogong i miss you so much :'c

:(

2009-07-09T20:58:00.001+08:00

Brother 不要再做坏事了，好不好 :'(
hope your court case will be 顺顺利利!

Hold me tight and whispers into my ears : We'll be fine baby, trust me.

2009-07-08T16:04:00.004+08:00

baby pls take care of yourself :'( i cant do much except asking you to rest well and stuff like that. You're always sleeping late and skipping meals. Do you know how worried sick i am right now? :( What if your fever become worse? What if you faint again? I dont want those to happen to you again. Just one night, and your sickness become so serious. Right now, i want to fly over to your side so badly... I wish i can transform into a doctor and heal you. I dont know how to cook/bake, but i'll learn those so that i can cook/bake for you. I will sunshine, for our 4th month okieokie? 10 more dayz I love you to the extreme. Get well soon :(

Distracted - you're on my mind every second

2009-07-07T20:29:00.006+08:00

the sudden silent night - nothing's moving.
half the time the world's ending.
here comes the cold shoulders and 1 word replies
i said the wrong things at the wrong time.
i shouldnt have said it at all, sorry.
i love you my dearest

Secrets left unsaid

2009-07-07T18:00:00.007+08:00

I'm super high today!! hehehee omg totally silly-willy-wacky day :> First period was... physics haha 2/1 laughed hardcore with mr tan's erm 'jokes' Basically everyone's mind is polluted and every word can link to sex hahahaa wtf :P The rest was so-so la, rather boring but i dint doze off ^^

After school, ate the ice cream that was a gift from the teachers. I've got mango :( After that, sent Regina home with Vian Jieshen Kel Howhow Shawnyong. Jieshen fishie used vian's cute moo moo umbrella! hahaha and i mixed up vian and regina's birthday. sorry regina :c 31st oct i remember liao okay!! Took 81 to tampines, then went to F.I.S.H for lunch to celebrate howhow's belated. Everybardie ate fish except howhow and vian, total $78 had some problems splitting the money :o After eating, i took out the cute small cupcake with one small candle and we started singing birthday song for howhow.

Walked around, got bored then kel and shawnyong split up with us. We continued shopping for food after that :s Walked around place to place haha. I bought chocolate!!!! and then we walked into a shop with cute drink cans. Decided to try one cuz it's so cute! I drank Apple (cuz of ''apple of my eye'') and vian drank honey. Superb ^^ We went home after that. I spent alot of money on food today sigh need to starve myself for the whole of this week already :(

Aint gnna upload all the pic as the lighting sucked and the pix turned out awful :(

Angel hands!!! :)

eww ah de apple of mwa ayeeee

okieeee i'm shutting down my laptop now, am going to be hardworking tonight.

Sombody call 911

2009-07-06T22:57:00.007+08:00

bordie bored so i'm here blogging. i'm stuck for my compo again. I never did finish ms anne's compo on time before always had to lie to her and say 'oh i left my compo at home, i'll bring it tomorrow' needa kick this bad habit of mine but i cant get enough inspirations to complete it :c I have this crazy idea of staying up and walkin' to whitesands to meet vian but no i dont want to end up complaining and dozing in class. i'm going to sleep soon after editing some html cuz babyboy's sleeping and i have no more entertainments.
Am excited for tmr!! I need $$ hope to dig out some from mum. i still owe bro $10 x.x

gd night everyone! Sleep tight sweet dreams yadidadada.
Same goes to you too, my dearest cute baby hehe!

HAHAHA PB HAS THE SAME HABIT AS ME, Leavin' all the hw till last min :P

:'(

2009-07-06T20:51:00.003+08:00

i miss you so much, i'm afraid. 我不想再失去你了
i wish that i can spend more time with you without even caring what time is it...

给我一天好不好?

I lost my way but you held my hands guided me through

2009-07-06T15:33:00.002+08:00

HOWHOW/PB/LAOBEI,
生日快乐!
friends for 1 yr+ and no quarrels at all, dont play play ah! :)
dont emo so much already okieokieokie, 6 friends here for ya.
(kel jieshen shawnyong me regina and vivian)

Love youuuuuuuu!!!

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got my lappy back from lazybum. I cant play 25 mins from my music player and the songs are jumping to the next when it havent even finish at all. it's irritating to the max. i love the weather right now so cooling it's making me sleepy ..... and hungry.

Together, we'll jump across every hurdles...

2009-07-05T15:31:00.009+08:00

hmph i shall just watch transformers online by myself :'c
i miss my blind man.
will reply to tags when i've got the mood ^^

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shit shit shit my transformers paused halfway. i was so enthuuuuuuuu... :'c
i wish i can create some robotz and ask him to date me - transformers in cinema!!
can die tryin' to find the second part of the movie f.
the show's really that awesome i rlly want to watch it w/o any pauses.

http://ourfeistyprincess.blogspot.com/ OR http://ourfeistyprincess.com/
can cry reading :c Go help go help!!!

OH YA I READ HOWHOW'S BLOG AND REMEMBERED TDY JOSH'S BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA!!!! :)

You’re the one I hug so tight, the one I dream of at night, always remember that I’ll forever be true, each and every second my heart belongs to you.

2009-07-03T18:49:00.006+08:00

I'm back home!! ^^ GOOD NEWS GOOD NEWS I GREW 2CM TALLER!! Gossips with girlz and created 'kissing clinic' during PE. I'm lovin' it hehe. The rest of the lessons are boring. For the last, we watched Transformers. After school, sent Regina home then went fish & co (again) for lunch with vian kel shawn js josh blahblah. Met mr. ears-got-problem for awhile then vian js shawn bought tickets for ice age. Yes i dint watch transformers, damn it i still want to watch it badly, anyone? pls pls pls :( After that, we walked ard and discussed some stuff, went to ntuc for inspirations but couldnt think much. Then js shawn and i went to t1 to look for restaurants. I went home after that :>
Boy am i glad that it's the weekends already.

I love you, my precious.
i miss you so badly right nw, how? :'c

As the trees reach for the sun above, my arms reach out to you for love

2009-07-02T21:51:00.006+08:00

Sibei shiok today hehe cuz i dint sleep in class. Nor did i feel tired ^^
2 free periods tdy, ms anne and mr teo dint come.
For mr teo's lesson, we all got into groups and started gossiping.
Mad girls talkin' bout french kisses chest hair etc etc HAHAA
Everybody sian diao for geog. But we had some fun hiding cheena's bag :3
Watched mj's videos for music, thriller still is creepy. haaa

PE tmr!! i want grow tall tall but not as heavy as vian hehehhe! kiddin' :P
finally watching transformers, but i aint that excited anymore. dk why :(

brother fried egg for me just nw, gd thing it's not chaoda like last time!
i miss baking cupcake with jiaen :>

where's the other side of you?

2009-07-01T23:24:00.005+08:00

dozing off for all the lessons. gd thing mrs aziz dint come.
baked cupcake with jiaen during home econs. yum :>
slept for the whole afternoon.
still very tired, dnt feel like goin' school tmr :(
aint gnna let it affect me anymore
wifeeeeeeeeeee must be strong.

take me to a better place

2009-06-30T21:43:00.007+08:00

Lessons were a lil boring for tdy. Tried to get some sleep whenever the teacher is not around. Cant sleep last night. Finally slept at 2 but my crazy maid woke me up at 4 30?!?!?!! :'< Went to school with heavy eyessssss. I dont like our geography teacher, i think he's weird. Class walked place to place for every period (exept last) just cuz projector not working tsk.

After school, walked regina home with vian and sherv then head down to dte for kfc. Vian fat already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tmr got f&n ^^ ..................... and maths test :( gnna go revise now.

\add ons/
when i'm sad, ppl can make me happy.
but when ppl ard me is sad, i cant do much......
sigh 你要开心leh :(

Baby,

2009-06-29T22:53:00.006+08:00

i'm missin' you like crazeeeeeeeee :(

As your sweet lips touches mine..

2009-06-29T17:58:00.003+08:00

School was a blast tdy. 2 and 1/2 period wasted on h1n1 and health check up. The nurse said that my backbone isnt straight. scary o.o Was half awake for chinese but i enjoyed physics c: Everyone was high becuz mr tan keep saying 'in and out' and kept giving cheeky smiles. too much influcence from daniel haha.

Walked to whitesands and bused to downtown with babyboy, leap years @ mac. that weird yet adorable sunshine of mine adds salt into his coke haha. Thank you hun for spending time with me even when you have to rush to fetch your sis after that. Love ya! :>

i go nap nap liaoz, so tired x.x